Flowing Through Mountains

Quiet day.  Lots of thinking, and hanging out with the dog.

First things first, let me just say that I do not like today’s picture.  I did not make time to take a good photo today, and I ended up with this shot.  So, I’m gonna try to write instead to make up for the crappy picture.

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Things have been very confusing for me lately.

Am I on a journey forward…or stuck behind bars?  These are the thoughts going through my head.  Am I taking the right steps up…or falling downward?  These are the questions I ask myself in the night.  What am I really doing with myself?  Do I even know what I want?

I have friends and people that love me, but yet I feel lonely.  I have plenty, and yet I am yearning for more.  But what?

What am I searching for, what am I missing?

If only I could wander for awhile, and stumble upon a sign post that points in the direction that I am looking for.  Or maybe find my own Cheshire cat that guides me, albeit confusingly, in the direction I desire.

I feel lost and confused.  Stuck between the daily grind and the uncertain.

I want more from life.  I want to explore and grow.  I want to share my life and adventures with someone special.  I want to hear music that I’ve never heard before.  Music that moves me, that stirs something inside of me that I wasn’t even aware was there.  I want to open my eyes and see the world’s colors.  I want to share the joy of the sunrise on a cool, crisp morning.  I want to wake up, and feel connected to the space around me.

I want to feel happy.  I want to feel loved.  I want to feel like my life has a purpose.

The big question is…

Will I even realize when I am happy, loved, and living a purposeful life?  Or will I still be searching…on a never ending quest for the things I already have?

Today started off pretty well.  Niki was going to a wedding today, and invited me along to shoot pictures.  Apparently, the family couldn’t afford a photographer, and Niki offered to see if I was willing to take the pictures.  As a matter of fact, I was.  With my interview at the portrait studio coming up tomorrow, I figured the experience would be good for me.  So, I offered to shoot the wedding for whatever they could pay.  I think things turned out pretty well.

After that though, things went downhill.  Some sad words were spoken, and some feelings hurt.  I didn’t know what to do with myself, so I reached out to my friend Marianna.  I ended up spending a few hours talking with her at her house.  It seems I called her at the perfect time though.  She’s headed out of town tomorrow for a week, and asked if I would house sit and watch her dog while they were gone.

Perfect.  I can spend some time away and think.  As much as being alone with suck, maybe it will help the current situation.  Hard to say.  This just sucks.

I decided to take a trip to Tallulah Falls, and see the Tallulah Gorge.  It was beautiful and serene, perfect for a day like today.  I went by myself, something that I don’t have a problem with most days, which was nice and gave me some “me” time.

Time to reflect on current situations, possible changes, and sweat, lots of sweat.  I was unaware that this adventure would include around 1,122 stairs, but I did it!  The view was amazing.  The accomplishment was satisfying.

I just wish I had a few days to spend out in nature and think.  I have a lot on my plate right now, and sometimes it’s hard to figure out what I want/what I need.

Yay!  I’m very happy with today’s shot.  :)

Big thanks to Cathy at Your Inner Art for the awesome motivation.  It came at a time when I really needed it, and for that I’m grateful.

The sky has been very overcast the past few days (maybe why I’ve been in a funk…), and this afternoon the clouds broke open to let the sun shine through.  On my way to the pet store for some bird food, I noticed this power tower.  Making a mental note of the location, I finished my errands and headed back to the spot.

The sky was so interesting with the sun shining through the clouds.  I also love the contrast between the soft, fluffy clouds and the harsh, straight lines of the tower.  This was my favorite shot of the bunch.   If you look closely, you can also see another tower in the background, tiny and centered between the angles.