First things first, let me just say that I do not like today’s picture. I did not make time to take a good photo today, and I ended up with this shot. So, I’m gonna try to write instead to make up for the crappy picture.
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Things have been very confusing for me lately.
Am I on a journey forward…or stuck behind bars? These are the thoughts going through my head. Am I taking the right steps up…or falling downward? These are the questions I ask myself in the night. What am I really doing with myself? Do I even know what I want?
I have friends and people that love me, but yet I feel lonely. I have plenty, and yet I am yearning for more. But what?
What am I searching for, what am I missing?
If only I could wander for awhile, and stumble upon a sign post that points in the direction that I am looking for. Or maybe find my own Cheshire cat that guides me, albeit confusingly, in the direction I desire.
I feel lost and confused. Stuck between the daily grind and the uncertain.
I want more from life. I want to explore and grow. I want to share my life and adventures with someone special. I want to hear music that I’ve never heard before. Music that moves me, that stirs something inside of me that I wasn’t even aware was there. I want to open my eyes and see the world’s colors. I want to share the joy of the sunrise on a cool, crisp morning. I want to wake up, and feel connected to the space around me.
I want to feel happy. I want to feel loved. I want to feel like my life has a purpose.
The big question is…
Will I even realize when I am happy, loved, and living a purposeful life? Or will I still be searching…on a never ending quest for the things I already have?
Flowing Through Mountains 
Jul 30, 2014 @ 03:27:10
I know that feeling. I’ve tried to stop asking myself these questions because i couldn’t find any answers.
Jul 30, 2014 @ 23:05:49
I know of what you speak!! *lol* We all go through times like this…it is the human condition : ) From my perspective, I would say you are definitely on a journey forward!!! When you are right in the middle of it, it can be hard to see, but take a step back and realize all the awesome things you are currently doing! And you do have a plan for your life and you are taking steps to make these things come true! and I am so proud of you!! I have come to learn that the future may always be the “uncertain” but this uncertainty is full of amazing possibilities and you really can have all that you desire!! I sent you an email with an inspirational passage a friend shared with me…hope you enjoy it as I did! xoxoxox