Yoga

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I found this photo online today and it really resonated with my current mood. Today I committed to a 30 day yoga challenge and what I found out was, it felt GREAT!

The first day was a 30 minute routine with your basic positions and flows. Could I do everything perfectly? No. But it felt amazing as I worked through the routine and focused on my breathe and moving with intention.

By the end, beads of sweat were gently rolling down the side of my face and down the curve of my back. But it felt good. It wasn’t that gross kind of wore out, beat to the bone, out of breathe sweat.

It was a feeling of success and renewed strength. It felt good.

Really good.

I want…

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Why is there never enough time to do what you want to do?

The days are too short and filled with obligations and chores.

I want to play. I want to relax in the shade of a forest of trees, watching as the creatures of said forest play themselves.

I want to create. I want to enjoy the creative process without feelings of criticism, mostly from myself. I want to be able to spend hours upon hours creating.

I want to read more. I want to get caught up in another world and become so familiar with the characters that I forget they’re not “real”.

I want to walk along the ocean shore on the most perfect late afternoon and hang out until sunset. And when the sun does begin to set, I want the light to play with the clouds in such a way that it creates a magical, evolving canvas of beauty.

I want to actually enjoy a thunderstorm. I want to smell the rain and feel the breeze as the storm passes through.

I want to feel alive, not just present. How do we balance our responsibilities and our desires? How can we enjoy our existence while also maintaining our financial obligations?

I want to feel alive.
Not just “be” alive.

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Knucklehead

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2 years ago we rode this ferris wheel on a wonderful, relaxing day hanging out together.

Tonight we rode VIP at night and got engaged! How crazy! And wonderful.

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Nursing school. Done.

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Wow.  I’m actually finished with nursing school. 

No, really. 
This isn’t a joke.  I took, and passed, my last nursing school final today. 

At 1pm this afternoon I walked into that building feeling confident that I would pass.  A much different sight than last semester mind you. 

Yes.  I failed a class last semester and was unable to graduate with “my class”.  I own that.  That’s my journey and I’m ok with that now.  But, I gave all of myself this semester to studying. 

I consumed rediculus amounts of coffee, stayed up all hours of the night, and ignored my friends/family to ensure that I passed this exam today.  And I passed.

I frickin passed!

It’s still hard to believe that I’m actually going to graduate from a private university with a bachelor’s degree in nursing.  What?! 

I’m proud beyond words and I think I’ll be in shock for a couple more days.  One huge step done, and one more to go. 

NCLEX is the next hurdle, but I got this.

Year 2/Day 228

Year 2 - Day 228
(Turkey Green Bean Stir Fry)

Whew.  Today was a long day in the kitchen.  I decided last week that I would try and prep some of our dinners on Sunday as well so I had less to do during the week.  Boy…I din’t realize how much extra work that would be!!

Good thing is, everything turned out looking delicious!

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(Oatmeal Raisin Protein Bites)

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(Chicken Enchilada Soup)

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(Taco Goodness)

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(Roasted Chickpeas)

Year 2/Day 227

Year 2 - Day 227

Ok.  I’m gonna just go ahead and say it.  I am struggling bad with this whole nursing school thing.  I have given everything I’ve got this week as far as being disciplined and spending the necessary time on studying.  I really have.  I worked on Tuesday, which put me back a whole day…and I’ve been struggling to catch up since.  There is just SOOOOO much on this study schedule I created.  And after my meeting with one of my professors…there was even MORE!

My biggest struggle, I suppose, is that I never really gave my studying the time it needed throughout the past few years and now…it all comes down to one test.  One big, bad, nasty test.  Nursing school is no joke.  I’m learning that the hard way this last year of school.  It’s just all so overwhelming and the harder I try to catch up, the more behind I feel.

Plus, I want to organinze my craft room, work on quilting, make some pretty candles, catch up on my blog, go on adventures and photograph nature, play video games, hang out with my boyfriend, go to more painting classes, use my awesome prismacolor colored pencils, exercise more, cook more, listen to music, watch tv, go to movies, hang out with friends, read books that aren’t nursing related, fold paper cranes…

I’m trying to not feel trapped by school.  Because if that happens, I usually make things worse.  And that’s the last thing I want right now.

I do want to finish school.
I do want to graduate and pass the NCLEX.
I do think I’ll find a job I’ll enjoy and be a great nurse.

One day at a time…I know.  I just needed to clear my head and that’s one reason I created this blog.

Guess I’ll get back to studying.

(Note: I did have an awesome study break today.  Will and I met up with some friends at KoKai, my favorite Thai restaurant.  Afterwards, we splurged and got some ice cream from Frosty Caboose.  All of it was delicious and the company was great!!)

Year 2/Day 209

Year 2 - Day 209

Time for more omelet muffins!!  Yummy!

The best part about this recipe is that you can add different ingredients to each one.

You like spinach, but they don’t?  Easy!

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