Day 47

Day 47

Today, I received some good news.  I had my interview at JCP portrait studio, and the manager would like to see me for a second interview.  Yay.  Then, I received an email from Sprouts offering me a job.  Double yay.  I wish I could be more happy about all that.  Instead, I spent the afternoon at Oakland Cemetery.  Which sounds a little odd, but I’m comfortable there.  It’s a beautiful place to walk around, or just sit under a shade tree.

Even though I’m glad that I’ll soon be working again, I’m still down.  My brain is on overload thinking, and thinking.  I’m hoping that by having a week alone, I’ll be able to sort out these thoughts and get my head straight.  Hoping that I don’t just get more lonely, sad, and depressed.  Hoping that I begin to get my life in order now that I’ll soon be working.  Hoping that I’ll understand what I want, and go after it.

Hoping.  For clarity.

I’m sick of thinking I understand my situation, and then the next day wondering if I made the right decision.  I’m sick of the back and forth.

It’s confusing.

And irritating.

And complicated.

5 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Your Inner Art
    Jul 29, 2014 @ 10:01:07

    Yeah!!!

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  2. Your Inner Art
    Jul 29, 2014 @ 10:05:55

    Being in that confusing place is irritating and complicated. Clarity comes from really listening to your heart and being confident that you will make the best decision for yourself at this point in time. It’s paralyzing to think that there is only one right choice. Any choice is the right choice for you right now. There are many possible paths for you to travel and each one is both magical and challenging. Do something to get out of your head so you can breath and chill. Then think, “if I were someone who knew what to do next, what would I do?” Take a bold a step as you can think of and keep moving forward.

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    • brandiadamsphotography
      Jul 29, 2014 @ 10:38:35

      I think you said it perfectly when you said “It’s paralyzing to think that there is only one right choice.” I’m often conflicted between what’s right for me, and what’s right for the situation or others. :)
      Thanks for the great advice! It means a lot.

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  3. Heather
    Jul 30, 2014 @ 22:57:52

    I would say go with your gut and do what is right for you, because that is the only person you can really know what “right” would be. And it may change from day to day and that is ok, it is life, and so it goes. You are doing awesome with all that you are dealing with at once. Keep moving forward and remember to find Joy in your days…with your photography, with nature, at the Oakland Cemetery….whatever brings you Peace and a smile!! xoxoxo

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