Today, I received some good news. I had my interview at JCP portrait studio, and the manager would like to see me for a second interview. Yay. Then, I received an email from Sprouts offering me a job. Double yay. I wish I could be more happy about all that. Instead, I spent the afternoon at Oakland Cemetery. Which sounds a little odd, but I’m comfortable there. It’s a beautiful place to walk around, or just sit under a shade tree.
Even though I’m glad that I’ll soon be working again, I’m still down. My brain is on overload thinking, and thinking. I’m hoping that by having a week alone, I’ll be able to sort out these thoughts and get my head straight. Hoping that I don’t just get more lonely, sad, and depressed. Hoping that I begin to get my life in order now that I’ll soon be working. Hoping that I’ll understand what I want, and go after it.
Hoping. For clarity.
I’m sick of thinking I understand my situation, and then the next day wondering if I made the right decision. I’m sick of the back and forth.
It’s confusing.
And irritating.
And complicated.
Flowing Through Mountains 