Year 2/Day 139

Year 2 - Day 139


Year 2/Days 100 – 112


Hi.  It’s been awhile.

I debated about uploading a picture for each day and trying to “catch up” again…but this time it didn’t feel right.  Instead, I wanted to update in one post.  It’s simpler that way.  I need simple right now.  The past couple of weeks have been extremely stressful for me.  School is almost over and I’ve begun to stress out with all that I need to do before the semester ends.  So, to alleviate some of my stress, I decided to take time off from work and focus on studying.   OK, breathe.

The first hurdle was to get through 5 days of clinical/seminars in 1 week.  My last three clinical experiences were all in a row.  Saturday 12 hours, Sunday 12 hours, Monday 8 hours = 32 hours.  Luckily, these turned out to be great experiences and I was able to do a lot of hands on learning.  Which was nice because it made the time go by a lot faster.  I thanked my preceptor, spoke with my clinical instructor, and walked out of L&D thinking…this is it.  One step closer to graduation.  A couple of days later, I had a 2-day Critical Care Seminar which was very interesting.  The speaker was very animated and taught with excitement.  I really enjoyed that experience as well.  OK, breathe.

The next hurdle was to get through 3 days of exams.  With the first exam being what I affectionately call “The Big Monster”.  This was the dreaded HESI Exit Exam.  For those of you in nursing school, you know this is a beast.  It’s a live or die moment.  Not quite as severe as the NCLEX…but close.  That was to be followed by my Med-Surg final and an exam covering Trauma/Shock.

Well.  Shit.

Let me just go ahead and say it.  I failed.  Big time.  That “Monster” ate me up and spit me out like I was rotten milk.  My whole world was flipped upside down by one test score.  Needless to say, I drank heavily that night.  But not too heavily remember…because I have two more tests to take.  (Yay… …)  Fortunately the next two tests yielded much better results.  But back to my world spinning out of control.  The result of my failed exam is that I now have to essentially score “above average” on our last comprehensive exam in 12 days.  I have to manage to re-learn, comprehend, and remember all of the information we have learned over the past 3 years, and do so while answering NCLEX style questions.  And the real kicker is…I have to do all this…in order to get an “Incomplete” in the course instead of out right failing.  If I don’t pass this exam with the highest score possible, I fail the class.  I FAIL!  I’ve never failed a class.  Sure, I’ve dropped a couple of classes I “would have” failed when I was much younger…but actually failed?!!  NO.

OK, well you still have to breathe…

On a positive side, the results of my echocardiogram and Holter monitor are that I’m a healthy 32 year old woman with occasional early heartbeats.  Per the cardiologist, there doesn’t seem to be much to worry about at this time.  Follow up appointment has been scheduled for 1 year, and I’ll call if I have any new symptoms.  OK, breathe.

So now…I wait.  Study and wait.  If I get the score I need on the 6th, I’ll be able to retake the HESI in January.  And if I pass that exam the second time, I’ll be able to graduate.  If not, I have to retake the class.  This all really sucks…but I’m trying to stay positive and push through it.

will graduate with a BSN.  I will pass the NCLEX and become a RN.

Year 2/Day 30


Looked at a couple more houses today, applied to one.  Fingers crossed!

Day 62

Day 62

Meow.  This is Oreo, my roommates cat.

He seems to love getting his picture taken.  Every time I’m outside looking for things to take pictures of, here he comes strolling up my way.  It doesn’t help that he’s such a darn cute thing, a little mean sometimes, but cute.

Pretty low key day today.  Worked, napped, hung out.  Good times.

Day 30

Day 30

Sometimes pets are great.

Sometimes they kinda suck.


Day 27

Day 27

Gonna just go ahead a say it…I kinda phoned in today’s picture.  I was getting ready to leave school tonight (around 8:00 pm) and realized I hadn’t taken a picture today.  Crap!  If it gets dark, my options get really diminished because I’m not working with a flash right now.  I started wandering the halls again, and ran into a bulletin board framed in these patches.  Ta-Da!  :) Done!

Some other random thoughts of the day:

I’m really enjoying this creative side of me.  I used to be really opposed to digital photography,  (“Film or nothing!”) but I gotta give it credit now.  I’m able to take HUNDREDS of pictures a day if I wish vs. worrying about the cost of developing my film.

Down side to all this…organization.  Seriously.  I’ve spent hours, and I mean HOURS, trying to figure out the best way to organize all the photos I’ve been taking.  Add to that the constant updates to Facebook, Flickr, and now my blog.

I hope I don’t sound like I’m complaining.  I don’t mean to.  It’s just…time consuming.  Some of it I really enjoy, while some of it is just work.  I’m really enjoying the creative side of digitally altering my photos.  I’ve created some really dramatic, off the wall pictures, and I love it!  :)

Thanks again for joining me in this journey.  I started this blog for myself, but I’m really enjoying the fact that others like it too!  :)

So thank you.

Day 4

Day 4

Today was fun.  I wasn’t sure what I was going to take a picture of…as usual.  So I headed outside to look around.  I started by taking some pictures of the trees in the yard and noticed Oreo rolling around on the driveway.  I decided to try and capture a picture of him from an unusual angle.  This is what I got.  I also managed to get a few other outtakes of his paws and legs that are cute.

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