Flowing Through Mountains

I’m so close to finishing nursing school…but I often feel like I don’t want to finish.  Why?

I feel like a creative spirit…yet I don’t feel like I create enough.  Why?

I want to eat healthier and get into better shape…but I don’t put in the time or effort.  Why?

I’d like to join a dance class of some sort…yet I’m too scared to commit.  Why?

I want kids…but am I any where near having them?

Am I happy?  I’m not unhappy…but I feel…what?

Thoughts have been running through my head nonstop lately, but I don’t know what to do with them.

As I lay down to sleep tonight…I’m wide awake.  Anyone who knows me, knows this is very strange.  All I normally have to do is lay down and less than 5 minutes later I’m asleep.

Not tonight.  Tonight I ask why.  Why do I feel this way?  What can I do to answer these questions?  Is there anything I can do to answer these questions?

Do I get up and go do something?  Be “productive”? 

It’s 5 am…maybe I’ll try to sleep again and let my dreams sort this shit out.