I’m so close to finishing nursing school…but I often feel like I don’t want to finish. Why?
I feel like a creative spirit…yet I don’t feel like I create enough. Why?
I want to eat healthier and get into better shape…but I don’t put in the time or effort. Why?
I’d like to join a dance class of some sort…yet I’m too scared to commit. Why?
I want kids…but am I any where near having them?
Am I happy? I’m not unhappy…but I feel…what?
Thoughts have been running through my head nonstop lately, but I don’t know what to do with them.
As I lay down to sleep tonight…I’m wide awake. Anyone who knows me, knows this is very strange. All I normally have to do is lay down and less than 5 minutes later I’m asleep.
Not tonight. Tonight I ask why. Why do I feel this way? What can I do to answer these questions? Is there anything I can do to answer these questions?
Do I get up and go do something? Be “productive”?
It’s 5 am…maybe I’ll try to sleep again and let my dreams sort this shit out.
Flowing Through Mountains 